My Tania in paradise

You came into the world with your sister Bijou and your brother Boby, following an accident between your mother Canaille and your father Rambo.

The people who had booked for you cancelled, so you stayed with us and became my little Tania.

14 years of happiness followed.

You adapted very well to the whole family.

This life of happiness and love began for you, with food on time, a home to shelter in, and as much petting as you wanted.

I think, seeing all the love I received from you, that I managed to make you happy.

Every opportunity was good to show me your joy, and of course the reward was my caresses and a little cookie that you adored.

When I was sitting on the couch, you'd also come and lie beside me, your head resting on my leg. When I'd lie down for a while, you'd come and lie down in front of me too, and I'd hold you in my arm so you wouldn't slip off - our cuddling session would sometimes last for hours.

In the evening, you'd come and snuggle up to me, your head on my arm, but you never stayed very long. You were more independent and preferred to make yourself at home on the end of the bed, so it's no wonder that some days I slept badly.

And then, little by little, all your companions left, followed by your mom Canaille, your sister Bijou and finally your brother Bobby, and lastly little Canelle whom you loved very much despite her late arrival. We then offered you 2 new little companions, Welsh puppies, which you adopted straight away, you were a real mother to them.

Life went on without a hitch until July 2012, when you developed a very serious nostril infection and underwent extensive treatment, fortunately with the desired results. You then had a molar removed and your teeth scaled. Following this operation, and in combination with your treatment, we started feeding you by hand, as you seemed to have a little difficulty chewing your food. It didn't take long to see the results: you've regained your appetite but, yes, there's a but...

You weren't interested in kibbles any more, so we started feeding you chunks of meat, soft waffles and all sorts of goodies. This went very well until the end of June 2013, despite everything with the occasional little epileptic seizure but nothing serious.

On June 30, you didn't want to eat anymore, just drink a little from your water bucket and go out for your needs, but it was suddenly so hard for you. On July 1, it was the same, but you had two epileptic seizures in a good 2 hours, and the last one went on and on. I put you down on the bed and you dozed off a bit, I was lying beside you, stroking you and talking to you.

I was so afraid that you would start to suffer, every time you opened your beautiful eyes, they were so soft and mysterious, and then I understood your message, you were telling me that you felt that the pain would soon be felt, I understood in your beautiful eyes that you were saying goodbye to me and thanking me for having loved you so much. I didn't realize yet that it was our last cuddle.

I phoned the vet and he came around 9pm. After examining you at length, he looked up and explained that the time had come for you to go to heaven and join your family. You never took your eyes off me, and every now and then you wagged your tail, relaxed and not in pain.

Your pretty eyes closed and then you opened them again to bid me a final farewell and say thank you with a gentle wag of your tail. You faded away in my arm, cheek against cheek, your loving eyes gone forever.

I wrapped you in a blanket and held you close to my heart, feeling your body warm against me, but no longer alive.

Like all the other pups, you were cremated and now rest in my secret garden, where you'll have pretty flowers and I'll visit you every day with tears in my eyes, and then with time...

The sadness will go... but you'll stay in my heart forever.

You'll always be my little Tchouky, my love Nana who gave me so much friendship, so much love with a sincerity I've never known in a human being.

I still have the love of my 2 little ones, but none of them will take your place in my heart, I'll never forget you, you've gone too, taking a corner of my heart with you, you were an adorable little girl.

I know, in a few months, a few years... but I loved you so much my little hairy girl, I also have your photo in front of my computer and it seems to me that, like all the other little ones, you're saying to me :

It's not your fault Francis, I'm crying too, where I am, to be separated from you, but our hearts are united for life (the one you have left without me).

I beg you my dad, never forget me, you were my breath of life and if I could have a second life, it's with you that I would spend it, I really had a happy life with you, alas much too short.

Farewell my lifelong friend, please don't cry, I'm no longer here to console you, so do me this favor, when you look at my photo, give me a smile... If you can...

Don't forget that I really loved you, keep hoping that one day, in heaven, we'll meet again and nothing will separate us.