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In tribute to My Little Chipie, my Baby, our Little AngelThanks to Your Mom |
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| 4 months ago, on October 21 at midnight, your heart stopped beating in the presence of your Sébastien, your big sister Fabienne and me, your mom, at the vet's where I wanted to try our last chance. I hope you don't blame me, but we couldn't accept you leaving us so young, so small, only 4 kg but with such a big heart and only 5 years old, alas. I'm still angry with myself for not having understood why you were so stressed, often worried, and it seems that you left us with a ruptured aneurysm, which still leaves me perplexed and distrustful of veterinary medicine today. And then I had to pull myself together very quickly, because a month later your sister Pupuce was getting depressed too. Like you, she understood my sadness, which didn't help her, but above all she couldn't explain her suffering to me or relieve herself, so I had to react quickly, I had to smile at her instead of crying with her in my arms, and I had to give her lots of support when Sébastien was at work, because I realized that she was letting herself go, and was now all alone in her basket, no longer playing with you, looking for you, eating less or even refusing to eat. What's more, she was due to have an operation on December 21, so for her operation I asked you to protect her and prevent her from joining you, especially for your Sébastien, we were already missing you too much, thank you my Chipie you helped her and since then she's recovered with time, it's been hard but we've all compensated on her for the lack of your presence which has helped her. In the last 3 weeks, I've taken on a little Caline that I know you've accepted, she helps me with her presence, one more doggie, she'll never replace you in my heart, you are and always will be there, I talk to you often, every morning I turn on a little lamp where I've put photos of you smiling at me in the kitchen where you were often with me, and in the evening I turn it off and take you with me, I also take you with me when I leave in the car, to work, you're always there. I've put up your photos in every room we pass, and especially above the bench where you spent a lot of time on the teddy bear next to Sébastien's microphone, and even in the cars you loved to go in. At the moment, your Pupuce is dreaming next to me, perhaps thinking of you, I can feel you there, my Nounoue, in any case no one will ever forget you, especially not me, your mom, and I would even say that knowing what you suffered for a little thing like you, that it helps me today, as it must, to overcome my current health problems. On the night of November 21, 2005 (4 months since you left us physically, my Chipie), you told me in my sleep the sentences to write you this message that I promised you when I had the courage, and today I'm finishing it, I hope you'll like it and continue to show us your presence as you've done until now, we understand you, anyway I always ask you when I have worries for one of us, you're our "Little Angel". Be happy with our Belle and Sébastien's Fifine, in your new life, go for a walk, run, give me this joy that will help me lift my spirits. I know that you protect us and guide us from up there when we ask you to, I also protect you and we pray for you my Chipie very often, waiting for me to join you later. I kiss you, my Baby, as I do every night. |
English (United Kingdom)